watching: the clock
listening to: random anime music
mood: a bit lonely, but not desperate yet

I have learned something this week. Here it is. Having a crush makes solitutude unbearable. Usually I can be very happy alone in my room doing homework or reading or what have you, but when there is a person that you would like very much to be with, being alone feels like a defeat. Even though I have no direct interest in pursuing my attachment beyond spending time with him, jealousy and fear are seldom far. Everything I do, I wear, he does, he says, becomes more deliberate and closely examined. And then I begin wondering what I did before I liked him. I mean, I've known him for awhile and only recently been attracted to him. I don't think it helps that my friends have been conspicuously busy or absent, leaving me more alone than usual. It gives me nothing to do but wish I had something to do. And then I think who I'd like to do things with. It's not the most peaceful situation, but it's not that serious either. I imagine the rush will run its course soon enough.

Hiyee =]. Hollahh backk, yo. :D xoxo, Sha~Sha

» Sha_Sha on 2004-11-07 01:42:28

boys.. my oh my.
i know how you feel.
» Cher_lyn on 2004-11-07 11:39:28

Hey you. Sorry if i scared yoo with my music. Buh, did yoo listen to ett a little more? Haha, the first part scared me too. Yeah, ill put a warning. Haha =]. xoxo, Sha~Sha

» Sha_Sha on 2004-11-08 08:47:21

Ok, i put a warning. its on the top where the statues bar is. Haha. xoxo

» Sha_Sha on 2004-11-08 07:30:14

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